The words floated through
the phone line like they were coming from another world. I remember gripping
the receiver, knuckles white, breath shallow. It was late, and my life felt
like it was collapsing in on itself. Panic was tightening its grip. Hope felt
like a rumor I’d never personally experienced. And then the counselor on the
other end of the line gently spoke those words, “let not your heart be troubled.”
I had never heard them before. I didn’t know they came from Jesus Himself. All
I knew was that something inside me stilled, as if the room exhaled.
I told him my fears, the
ones I’d never said out loud. He didn’t rush me. Didn’t preach. He simply
brought me back to that sentence, repeating it slowly, like handing a cup of
water to a man dying of thirst: “Let not your heart be troubled.” I could almost
sense someone else in the room—Someone who wasn’t put off by the mess, Someone
who wasn’t pacing with worry over who I’d become. This wasn’t a pep talk. It
wasn’t therapy. It was an invitation.
The counselor told me those
words came from Jesus on the night before He went to the cross, spoken to
disciples who were terrified. It stunned me. If Jesus could speak peace into a
night like that, into a room full of fear, dread, and confusion, maybe—just
maybe—He could speak peace into my life as well.
And then came the moment.
Not dramatic. Not cinematic. Just me, a trembling voice on a phone, whispering
that I wanted this Jesus—the One who speaks calm into chaos, the One who tells
troubled hearts to come home—to take my life. The weight didn’t lift instantly,
but something shifted. A spark. A beginning. A Savior stepping into the
wreckage without hesitation.
Looking back, I know exactly
what happened. The voice through the phone wasn’t just a counselor’s. It was
Jesus Himself calling my name, steadying my soul, and planting peace where
panic had lived for far too long.
Since
that night, everything has changed—not in a flash, and not without valleys, but
unmistakably. The same Jesus who spoke to me through a phone line has become my
constant Companion, the Shepherd of my soul, the Friend who never walks away.
He has steadied me in storms that should have undone me and lifted me when I
had no strength of my own. He has patiently shaped my heart, corrected my
steps, and filled empty places I didn’t know how to name.


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